.Sunday, December 28, 2008 ' 11:48 PM Y
i want to be love
klau dapat bace hati seseorg tu..mesti best..yer larh..kite bleh tolong org tu kalau de ade masalah...tap...perasaan seseorg tu, memang susah nak paham, lagi2 kalau de choose to keep it to himself...kite hanyer bleh agak jek, macam mane mood de skrg...ade org de pandai sembunyi kn perasaan dorg yg sebenar, dorg sembunyi kn perasaan sedih dlm kegembiraan..later that day, sebab tak leh ang lagi, dorg nanges...kwakwakwa..dah lalui beb...hahakz..
dlm dunia ramai org ngah suffer, tap dorg ade that 'sumthin' yg keep dorg lalui segala keperitan hidup...memang aku blm lalui all that hardship or pain, tap seeing my family members facing all kind of trouble, aku mula bepikir, aku ni kuat ke hadapi the challenges im about to face?? im not that independent, even carik keje, aku tak brani..serious..acting tough in front of people, thats who i am...i categorized myself as a useless n a coward person..sedih..kinda pathetic...
bile org nanges..it must be sumthin yg crucial gitu, eg. matae, cite sedih ect...for my case i cried coz i felt, my family doesnt trust me...hahakz...mepek kn..theres one incident, computer suddenly macam kne virus gitu, tak bleh on n screen de n kekadang the screen went blank...expected, they blame me, maybe pasal aku slalu pakai comp tu, n they said ape2 yg aku pegang mesti rosak nye...kalau dorg beli bende baru jek, dorg mesti ckp, jgn kac iqa pegang, nanti rosak...padahal, comp rosak pasal monitor old school, dari aku kecik monitor tu dah wujud...pada zahirnye, kuarga aku, nmpk macam takde masalah gitu, padahal, dalam satu hari tu, mesti ade yg bertukar pendapat dgn suare yg tinggi, ia akan berakhir bila satu pihak tu kuar dari umah...tap yg klakar nyer, tanpa kemaafan kitrg dah ok n happy2...macam tak masuk akal...
so conclusion pade hari ni ialah, jgn simpan dlm hati klau mood ngah low, klau tak share ngan kwn pon, tulis kat mane2, perasaan sakit hati/sedih/marah insya-allah hilang...that works for me..n lagi satu, dont be a like me, always rosakkn barang org lain..tap tak bleh nak buat ape2, im a jinx...
*Ya ALLAH!! Berilah aku kekuatan agar aku kuat menghadapi hidup ku ini!! Tabah kan hatiku supaya dapat aku hadapi segala cabaran yg akan KAU lempar kn kepada ku di masa hadapan kelak! AMIN YA RABBAL ALLAMIN*
=>NashRiqa<=
*My heart is fragile, so pls hurt me no more*
